Maybe it's because I haven't eaten a real meal in over 24 hours. Maybe it's because it was assumed that I would work late last night and the only work I was asked to do was run reports that they could have ran for themselves. Maybe it's because I've spent more time setting up the temps computer than it would have taken for me to do the damn job myself. Maybe it's because I've been asked to do the temps work and the special project without regards to the fact that I only have 24 hours in a day. Maybe it's because I'm expected to come in this weekend but they don't know what I'll be doing. Maybe it's because I need to find a place to live and I haven't had time to walk out of the office in 3 weeks. Maybe it's because my roommate hasn't spoke to me since I told him I didn't want to sleep with him. Maybe it's because I haven't spoken to my children in 2 days.
What ever it is. I'm pretty damn grumpy right now.
There is so much in this world to experience. There are so many beautiful sounds and tastes. It is amazing how emotional an experience can be when a sense has been fully touched. When the taste of a well aged cheese is combined with a fabulous port and jazz in the background. When you are sitting in the hills listening to a guitar and the voice of a beautiful woman. When the honest and uplifting words of a poem touch the depths of your soul. To experience just one of these leaves me filled with love and emotion so overwhelming I feel blessed and honored to observe. I want to take a moment to thank my friends for introducing me to the fabulous events of this weekend, and most of all - for being there to share it with me.
I grew up in a very emotionally poor situation. I felt anger, pain, peace, and excitement, disappointment, and lust. All of these emotions were instigated by people. The only art I had been touched by was the music on the radio. It's a fabulous introduction, but not nearly as powerful as life. Had I known it was possible to be moved so powerfully by a concert or a beautiful dinner, I don't know that I would have made some of the decisions I have made in my life. I always craved the thrill and the power of excitement. I sought that in the people around me, often men. Little did I know that a more spiritual experience can be found on a folding chair with a glass of wine surrounded by Nigerians.
My lesson tonight is that while money can't buy happiness - art in it's finer form can bring life altering insights. These lessons are not only for adults but for children as well. Teach them well. Let them know. Open their hearts.
